The funeral ends and the rest of the world goes on with there lives. Meanwhile every single moment is a struggle to get through for the family she left behind. I have been fluxuating still from being ok to being really not ok.
Lauren and I had a movie day and saw Social Network and Devil. Both good movies the quality however may have been undercut by my constant emotional flux. I woke up this morning feeling kind of like a normal person again. I don't know how long this is going to last so I'm going to make the best of it while I can.
It's a short post today because part of the reason I feel normal today is because I've gone kind of cold. I feel numb and it is harder to write when I feel that way. New York seems farther away it feels ghoulish to say I'm sitting around waiting for insurance money to fly me out and set me up back in NY but that is the way it is.
My mom's car is going to get fixed soon and when that happens I'll get a job just to occupy my time and get some walking around money until the insurance comes in. Mean while I have to sit and watch dad lose his hair over money and bills that mom used to take care of. I'm not sure how to help all I know is I really want to.
That's all for now.
I love you all
KH-
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