New York Day 11 “Castles Made Of Sand”

Today was Rockaway Beach day. Once again I was introduced to some new people, two lovely Brits named Emily and Flow and I got to know Lauren’s boyfriend a bit more which was great because he is a pretty awesome dude.

This was my first time seeing the Atlantic and the second time ever seeing an ocean. The symbolism of this moment blew my mind. Here I am at the dawn of my new life standing at the edge of an ocean when only 2 years ago I was at the dawn of a different new life standing at the edge of a different ocean. The poetry of the moment couldn’t be let go so I scribbled this down.

“One ocean land marking each of the two biggest moments in my life, looking back at who I was its like remembering a different person, like my memory is a story told by a dear friend. I was a newlywed at the Pacific I was happy and at the start of the life I had been planning for since I was 17 years old. A life I now know, that was destined to fall apart in the most painful way possible in order to make way for this, my New York adventure.

I stand at the biggest reminder that we are all connected, a new man a confident man. I see myself becoming the man I always hoped I would become. I realize now my life had to shatter in order to give birth to the man I am right at this moment, that pain was birth pains, it wasn’t a destroyed world it was just a striking of a set so that a new stage could be built.

The ocean is the divine witness to my spiritual rebirth, the constant objective observer, a reminder that I am incredibly important and infinitely insignificant all at the same time.”

After my esoteric moment I did bring myself to have some care free fun in the sun…burning only half of my leg like crazy. After the beach it was off to the bodies exhibit which was fascinating but also really gross. I also heard a rumor that the bodies used in the exhibit used to be Asians slaves and didn’t actually donate there bodies to science. The website just said that they where people who died naturally and who’s bodies where unclaimed…some how this doesn’t put me at ease.

Tomorrow is a lazy day and Monday is “get me certified” day. Wish me luck because I really need to start getting some money in my pocket.

KH-