Dream Catching and Self Awareness.

Over the past few weeks I have realized a few things. I have forgotten a lot of the things that made me interesting in the past and more then a few things that made me happy. I have been rediscovering music, politics, and idealism.

What I forgot about myself is that I am an idealist with endless potential. I get things done and when shit hits the fan I hit the ground running. I guess New York has a way of making you feel like a drop in the bucket.

When I came here I fully intended on grabbing my dream with both hands. When I was a kid I intended to change the world. Now what do I intend on doing? A few months ago my aspirations including making rent, eating right, and losing some weight maybe. Now I feel the fire of inspiration coursing through my veins.

I am not satisfied with losing “some weight” I must become a physical specimen. I am not satisfied with making rent I must win the game as much as a game such as this can be won. I am not content with just “chasing my dream” I must inform the national conversation and redefine the plot of our generation or possibly the generation behind me...

I don’t give a goddamn if any of this is plausible I just know it is what I’m going to do. I have to ask myself, where this second wind has come from? If i’m honest with myself I would say it’s a combination of a long resting period after a 4 year stretch of turmoil and a network of friends who are equally and possibly more idealistic then I am.

I’ve given up on what New York has to tell me about success because as much stupid quixotic soap boxing you’ll find here you will find even more nay sayers telling you how you should do things and how all your choices till now have been wrong. No one can tell you how to do things your way.

SO all of that being said this is my new goal/playbook. I will become as physically fit as I can without sacrificing my artistic endeavors. I will sell my writing to the highest bider. I will not low ball myself. I will at most redefine the plot of my generation through writing and film making and at the least be heard and spark a conversation that engages hearts and minds. I will not live in a way that betrays my potential.

Hop on for the ride or stand back and watch but this train is leaving the station. I thought leaving for New York was the start of the story but I had absolutely no idea...

I love you all.

KH-

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